heartbeat

As I laid on the bed I tried to think of something that has a true meaning to me. I left my cds aside (my continuous lovers) and closed my eyes. I sensed the heartbeat in my head. A repetitive sound, deep,silent, a movement that gives what we call life, an unwilling action of myself. I focused and felt more and more calm. Until all my troubled thoughts were washed away into a soiled unconsciousness, and god kept on giving me life without telling me the reason why. Surprisingly, it was when I stopped asking for an answer and was taken away by a dream.